NOM

First time in over a year. My clothes fit funny, I was constantly tugging and pulling and rearranging. I was so hot and uncomfortable. It felt like more than just an extra layer of clothes. The legs rolled up as did the shirt hem.

I can't believe I ever wore them. It makes me sad and mad for all the years of awkwardness.

I know that feeling. For years I had stopped wearing the bottoms but kept the cotton normal looking t-shirt tops going out of habit and mild comfort with work shirts.

I put the full sex repellant suit back on once after about 5 years of not wearing the tops and bottoms together. I lasted about an hour. The episode made my brain crawl out of my head and I felt like I had stepped into the loins of oppression. A suit of mental inducing sorrow, shame, and guilt layered within polyester mesh and faded fabrics from a past life. The polygamy panties where too much for me to handle and I took them off and threw the rest away symbols and all. Recently I've ditched the tops at Mrs. RR's suggestion that I buy new white t-shirts because my G tops were falling apart. She even bought a package of Hanes white tshirts for me and occasionally I'll catch myself in the mirror wondering where the Masonic symbols went? Like something's missing here, but I just can't put my finger on it? Then she'll walk by in her garment top and I'll notice the Masonic symbols covering her nipple and she'll turn and push away not letting me put my fingers on it.

Garments are so unsexy! Sometimes I just want to take a belt sander to the front side of her tops and thin them out a bit for transparancy. Maybe replace the lace edges and bad seams with zippers that glow in the dark? Or hem the sleeves while she's at ward choir practice for that extra 3 inches of shoulder! She'll never know right?

Just took mine off. It feels very weird for me not to have that extra layer. I wear some undershirts with a buttoned shirt and it feels more natural to have that second layer.

It has felt great not to have a constant reminder of how the church is controlling my life with no legitimate claim to that control.

I have gone without at time (as often as occasion would permit) and I love it. Unfortunatly DW is not down with that and I guess I have to wear something. Its not a huge deal for me. I do hope to ditch them some day though. They mean nothing to me and seem creepy when I really think about it.

Red Ryder™ wrote: ↑Fri Feb 03, 2017 7:10 am The polygamy panties...

Quoted for emphasis... And TRUTH!

Red Ryder™ wrote: ↑Fri Feb 03, 2017 7:10 am The polygamy panties...

Best term ever for those ugly things. Permission to steal it?