Our ward's bishop, with whom I was a counselor for just over 3 years, is coming up on his 5-year mark. Speculation about the next bishop has been running wild. About 30 minutes ago I got a text from the stake secretary asking if my wife and I could meet with the Stake President this coming Sunday afternoon.
I feel kind of sick to my stomach about it.
Option 1: The meeting is just a check up for current EQPs and their wives, and nothing will come of it. Is that even a thing? unlikely
Option 2: The meeting is a pre-emptive interview for us to renew our temple recommends. Both of us need to schedule stake interviews, so this is a very remote possibility but ultimately unlikely
Option 3: He has noticed that I haven't paid tithing in more than a year and is calling us in to question where we are. possible
Option 4: He is interviewing candidates for the new bishop. likely
I don't care to continue my activity in the church, but my wife does care about her activity. And she intends on taking the kids with her. My goal is to be involved enough that I don't have to continually fight messaging that I am an unworthy father, or destined to hell for not doing priesthood-y things. This double life may be a bit duplicitous but I don't feel like I need to be any more honest with the church than the church has been with me.
Assuming it is either 3 or 4, I don't see how I come out of this meeting with the ability to still be a part of my family's religious life. I sense that my release as EQP is imminent and my forthcoming lack-of-standing in the church will be common knowledge amongst my best friends who are in the stake presidency, high council, and bishopric.
I don't necessarily want to cross this bridge yet, but I don't see how I can get out of it. Whether I simply say no, get released, or eliminate myself from the running for bishop, all roads end up in the same place.
