slavereeno wrote: ↑Mon Jan 28, 2019 4:31 pmThe first time I went though I did NOT have a good experience. The only tolerable part was seeing my family in the C-Room at the end. I was confused, blindsided, dazed, I thought I had messed up some of the stuff I was supposed to say in my head. All that
after I had faithfully attended every single temple "prep" class as it was constituted in my ward, (useless).
But that thought came to me much later, a few years into my marriage. I was very conservative politically as a teenager, and the law of consecration bothered me deeply when it was presented in high school seminary. I didn't think the communist ideology was right, and even if it did work, I don't think it was God's idea. I couldn't see how the law of consecration was different than communism. I suppose it was kind of a shelf item going way back. So, over the years, as I attended the temple and weirdness turned to boredom, I picked that one apart, and yes it bugged.
I can't say my first time plagiarized masonic induction was a great experience, or awful, so I guess it was just meh. I remember at some point thinking I was legitimately in a cult, and also thinking "That was it? Really? That's the PINNACLE of
mormon worship???" A few weeks later I was in the MTC, hearing everyone else tell me how awesome the temple was, and about all the super-secret cool stuff I'd learn if I went back over and over. I bought into it, and went back over and over. Never figured out anything super-secret or cool though.
As far as celestial communism is concerned, I bought into that too. In my head I was fully willing to give everything to the church. I kind of also thought that it was never gonna happen, so I guess that was my "out." I remember thinking that communism really didn't work in the real world, but didn't think about it too much (put it on the shelf,) and of course "knew" that it would work in
mormonism; "Something would change" and it would work. As my shelf slowly eroded, my willingness to give everything to "the church" eroded too. After my shelf completely disintegrated, I realized: They tried the celestial communism thing in
mormonsim more than once,
and it didn't work. Just like pretty much everything in
mormonsim:
It doesn't really work, and it can't live up to any of it's promises.