
A few weeks before my oldest son graduated high school last May, he came out to his mother and me. He has an online boyfriend, but he isn't sure he wants to label himself as gay. He has been dealing with a lot of pain for a long time. At the time, he was living with his mom and her parents (who recently returned from a senior mission), and he didn't want to upset the apple cart or appear to be a corrupting influence on his siblings. He moved in with me a few weeks ago, and the fact that I don't pressure him to go to church has been life-changing for him, as well. I feel like it is a toxic environment for him.
He's made me question whether I want to keep pretending, as well. I'm still mulling things over, but I decided if I stay, it isn't going to be on the Brethren's terms. It'll be on my own. Searching for others from whom I can learn to do that brought me here. I have read so many of your posts, and it has been so good to know that I'm not alone. I hope to keep learning from you and become part of this community.